Diary Entries Part 1

Monday, November 29, 2004

I awake to passion and the eyes of an angel. I'm well rested and feeling fit. I am thankful for being alive and blessed by God and his world.


Afternoon:
It's a beautiful day - it's gorgeous. I'm accomplishing things. So much to do and all will be revealed. Patience and understanding. Unconditional love. I love her and it feels right.


A little after 5:00pm:
Rose called, she wants me to check into opening a satellite office for Eagle* in Austin.
Good feelings - overwhelming - happy.
Chrissy, I'm realizing that love is more than I have ever known before. It's like we knew each other before, but when is the question?
I'm helping others by helping myself. I'm sharing unconditional love. It's a new concept for me, Very natural, feeling uninhibited.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Last night was quite special. Chrissy was feeling blue. I had the pleasure of consoling her, being a friend. It was great. Life skills. I'm in love for the first time in my life. Unconditional love, Trust, Honesty, Good Will. My body is becoming healthy. I'm doing yoga and it's not easy. So many new feelings and experiences.


I'm learning who I am. Growing up is tough. All that I have been through to create who I am now. My strengths and abilities have not been tested or disciplined.The day was pure pleasure. Closeness is building by the day. I'm growing and dealing with issues on an adult level. Communicating, talking and sharing. I so enjoy our loving making. It's so powerful. With all the woman I have known, never have I encountered such feeling, love, passion and caring. She is truly erotic and sexy.


Eagle is pushing for a satellite office in Austin. Rose wants me as a worker. I want that business savvy, just like when I was in my 20's. Two jobs, a band, two ball teams, etc. I was on top.


Busy and making magic. Now, I can do it without drugs. Holistic, eating correctly, exercising, love with this beautiful woman. Just living life with boundaries and integrity.


I phoned some old friends in Denver, many with no answer. Tells me something.


I spoke with my mom and asked her for some pictures of me and the family. Partially for myself and because I want to share them with Chrissy.

*Eagle - long distance moving company that M worked for.